Hopefully Pregnant Soon...

As I may or may not have mentioned before... I so LOVE being pregnant and want to be pregnant again!  Yes, Hubby and I are happy with our 2 wild, high-energy children and do not want anymore, but I want to be pregnant again.  I want to help a couple that cannot have a child on their own by being a surrogate and having their child for them.  Hubby and I thought about working with an agency, and I actually signed up with an agency almost a year ago, but things didn't work out as I had hoped... so here we are again starting over.

We decided it would be so much better to be able to work with a local couple through a local fertility clinic instead of having to fly for testing and transfer and worry about time off work, child care and everything else that travel involves.  And of course, because we already went through that phase before, and even though the mini-trips were fun, we know how hard it was to have to plan NYC trips and arrange for the kids to be taken care of at the drop of a hat... and we never really like leaving the kids.

So, a wonderful mom at our amazing preschool had mentioned to me a few months back that she knew an attorney who had a couple that was looking for a surrogate.  I called him and filled out a profile and a few weeks ago Hubby and I met with this lovely local couple and we decided to work together.  They were just great and we talked like we were old friends... and I truly am so happy to be able to help them have their dream come true.  The contract is in the process of being drawn up and I am hoping it will get finalized within the next week or so as I am sure they are just as anxious to get started.

To have another baby... or not to???

Hubby and I agreed before we even got married that we would have 2 kids, ideally a boy and a girl... but if we had 2 boys or 2 girls we would try a 3rd, but that would be it.  With Little C we did not find out what we were having... and I totally recommend to any pregnant women out there to NOT find out!  It was so fun and exciting to wonder and dream and have it be an amazing surprise when that little one is born.  Hubby wanted to know but agreed to my wishes of neither of us knowing and to this day says he is so glad we didn't find out.  With Cookie M we did find out, mostly because I am such a planner and we needed to know if we needed to buy a new bedroom set (as C would be using the new set we got him) or if we could use my set from when I was a child (which has flowers all over it and could not be used for a boy).  If I had to do it all over again, I think I'd not want to find out and just use the girl set either way for a newborn... but as it was... we found out.

The minute they said "girl" in the ultrasound room I felt a mix of emotions.  Little C had said from day one that it was a baby sister and not a baby brother in my tummy, and he said that is what he wanted :)  I was so happy because I really wanted a little girl and had it been a second boy there of course was no guarantee that #3 would be a girl, so I was thrilled and relieved that I was having a girl.  But... I was a little sad too... and maybe even a little disappointed... I really wanted more than 2 kids... and now that we had a boy and a girl on the way, we were done, per our decision from years before.  Any time someone asked if we were stopping at 2 kids... I would think "how??? I want more!!!".  Our daughter was born happy and healthy, just like her brother and I didn't give baby #3 a thought, as we were very busy with a 2 year old and a newborn.

The older Little M got, the more content I felt with our family exactly the way it was.  I started feeling like things really were perfect for us the way they were.  Not that I would be disappointed or upset in any way if baby 3 happened, but we really are just so happy with the way the things are.  This feeling of being content and happy with 2 hasn't changed.  My hubby and I both feel confident in our decision to not have any more of our own children... but I will, hopefully, be pregnant again...